i couldnt sleep last night. Infact I couldn't sleep for the past few days. Insomnia they call it, but I think the reason remains burried. I so badly wanna talk to nick. There was a reason why our relationship didn't work out, but somehow amongst the people I keep relationships (more like lost) he seems to be the only one I am almost completely honest with. We used to have an honesty hour session in the wee hours of the morning where we'd tell about our past/family and stuff. I didn't have to be a different person when I told him my mom owns a shop. I didn't have to lie when I told him I moved to a shophouse to be nearer to my mom to help her. He understood! He never judged me and I never judged him. But somewhere along the way I guess the sparks didn't fly. I guess we weren't meant to be together, but maybe just for the experience cause never in my book would I have dated someone like him. Dated. I don't know if it was that, or were we mainly more than friends, but less than a realtionship. Anyway back to the story. So I couldn't sleep last night and I composed this long text I intend to send to him. But I knew I'd never. Then I woke up this morning feeling like I should just take the chance. I mean, it's not like I'm ever gonna see him again. And I don't have much mutual friends. Like 3? Chances of embarrassment has downsized by a whole load of folds. I live life once. I should take risks. I always took risks and look where I am right now! Okay in MY perspective I think I'm in a pretty good situation. A* for grad project and Bs and Cs respectively in terms of enthusiasm. So why not right? But I'm just scared :( what if he actually replies and ask me to fuck off or something. Urgh.