Yeah yeah, i know i should be studying right now.
I just woke up and i really needa calm down and relax before starting the gruelling duel and the staring showdown between me and them notes.
And trust me, i have no more to give cause i gave it all during business.
And i will cut my hair if i dont get an A cause i know i did well when i didnt have to plan down what im going to write for the 3 essays. Cause hell yeah motherfucker i studied business like there aint gonna be no peanut butter no more cause i wanted to prove to myself that i can do it, and i did it!
But see, the problem then came from marketing. Cause marketing is all about customer-manager relationships and weird definitions and marketing stuff that no matter how much i try, i couldnt. i just couldnt give it my all. and i totally am sure i am going to either fail, or by god's grace get a borderline pass cause i couldnt even attempt the first question. The essays that i could do, weren't the ones i memorised, they were like in a TOTALLY different league..
Then came PSSR (psych of social science and research) now i couldnt study for that cause i had alot of um, distrctions and i didnt feel good anymore. =( to make it worse, my friend got barred from the exam and i got so worried and scared for her cause i want her to move on and go with me if we pass, to semester 2. =( she motivated me and cause she took business before, explained terms i never heard of before, she was like my mentor and i wasnt going no where without her.
My school life's complicated cause of the nature of my class and the secrets we three keep.
Yeah, we dont divulge in our personal matters and only do about school, but that's what im talking about.
No i aint pointing fingers here, im just saying.
Some times comprimises have to be made, it can never always be about you, and it can never always be perfect
Sometimes we have to change who we are to fit into each's cracks.
It just fustrates me cause i thought i would finally get friends i know will be there.
I've been sitting here watching friends come and go, all with the "forever and ever" motto.
Maybe its just me, they say change is good for the better, but i aint going no where if you're changing for the worst.
=( i just wanna be normal, have normal friends that meet me once in a while to eat or to watch a movie, and be able to talk normal things with without the awkward silence.
Sometimes, blogger, this makes me cry.