Its just that, I AM willing to go. But the whole prospect of not knowing ANYONE there kills me. Yeah sure, i dont have many friends here to begin with, but at least i have a few i know i can buzz up to talk to when i feel uncomfortable. I know what if i were to leave my house in tears and rage, i would always end up at work, laughing with my friends there. Cause thats just how they are, we look out for each other because we have that bond. My bosses? yeah they can be a motherfucking pissoff at times, but hey, isnt everyone like that at some point? They make me laugh too, with their child like minds, and paul's laughter and josh's lame ramblings. If i go away, to some foreign land, who will i be able to turn to? To ring when i need that boost when i feel down? I know globalization'sabout, i can still skype and see them virtually, but honestly. Everyone hates virtual hugs and assurance. We need the real thing.
If it really goes the way it seems like its going now, i'd probably be leaving in january, after i get my results.Though i end school in October, I'm not going to be flying back here in Jan just for the results. I'm going to be working at p.osh EVERYDAY if i have to.