Tuesday, August 17, 2010.
> 7:44:00 PM.
I AM excited she's coming.
I dont really hate her, vannessa that is.
For ya'll who dont know her, she's my first half sister i never talk about.
Yes, i have another sibling, and yes again. she's only half.
So the only reason why i dont really talk about her is boiled down to one reason
- her attitude.
It's not the common bitchy syndrom.
But because she was born in the Philippines, a few years before my sister.
And them my momma left them both there under the care of lolo and lola; the gramps.
My momma came here and pops out with my ignorant and stupider than an ape brother, and me!
Then she went back for my sister only.
And thats when vanessa, deprived of love, did what she does now.
She became uncontrolable.
Steals from even her own family for money.
then she got married, and had a child.
And she's not exactly my proudest kin.
Ah, how do i put this?
Promiscuous? Yeah, the nicest word i can say.
I shant shame her on my page cause in the end, deep deep down, i still love her.
Even though i only saw her like if i were to put all the days together, less than a year for my ENTIRE life
i kinda understand her a litle, although i sincerely hope she would've had the courage to change, and have faith in her herself.
To simply put, Repent.
so yeah, she had a child she never took well care of, she always wanted the easy way out.
She gave it to my sister who was staying there at that time and disappeared.
Then when she got preggers by someone else ( she "broke" off with her husband" ) she came back home, and my Lolo has a soft spot for children, and besides, she was their very own grandchild.
Despite her stealing alot of money and jewellery from them the last time, they let her back in the family. With Love.
Her child, the girl; thinks my aunt and my sister are her mothers.
Vanessa lives under the same roof, but does not, and is not allowed to tell her the truth.
Then she gives birth to her child #2, her son.
And predictably left him there too.
Well, the last time i saw her, she was still in the house with her son, and it's about a year back, we went to the pool and she could only hang out with me cause my aunty refuses to talk to her.
too many stealing uh, histories
and my mom ignores her for she is ashamed of such child.
So celia was backing in the sunset with her alone.
And she wanted to know more about me.
Knowing her, she loves modelling, she had the figure. ( the dreaded skinny )
And face too. she's Pretty, no denying that
i told her it's kinda easy to get modelling jobs here.
and we were just basking in the sun, talking sister to sister stuff.
She told me she really wanted a monokini that was shimmery gold.
The kind that takes confidence to pull off.
It was kinda expensive there, and i remmebered FEP having it for like 39.90
i told her skillfully that if i "found" it here, i'd give it to her. heheheh
then on the way back home in the plane, i told momma
she forbid the idea saying that'll only encourage her to be more rebellious, and skip her school and leave her children to take part in another pagent.
But if someone is SO determined to make it in the modelling world, why hold her back?
If she has happiness there, maybe she'd be better behaving there?
Who knows?
And naturally you can never deter my momma's "rules"
So no monokini or anything to her.
And maybe i feel this way towards her cause i've only known her since.
And my mom and everyone knows her more.
And now that i find out she's coming here.
I dreaded it at first, But it slowly warmed up to me.
I'm kinda excited to show her the city i live in.
The great fashion bargains one can get.
The awesome food.
And maybe, hopefully, she wont stray.
I think she's making the first step to "rehab"
And somehow, i'm kinda proud of her.
Hello, the end is here
