Precelia=)
I Laugh Alot, I Talk Alot
NINEteen going on TWENTY.
September 16, My Day.
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I'm Fat, I Know
I Blog, I Scream, I Bite
Polka-Dotted Socks Turn Me On
I Find Flip Flops Sexy
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Celia Lee
So! remember how i said i was gonna get inked soon?
Well, i did! And i figured, heck since im gonna get it, might as well get it somewhere that everyone claims is in the top 3 most painful. (Incase you dont know, the voted areas that hurt like a bitch are the ribcage, inner part of your upper arm the triceps i guess? and the back of your knee.. and so forth)
Well, i got my right rib tattooed on! and honestly, the pain wasnt as much as i anticipated it to be, my eyes never welled up, but my mouth made funny shapes though. The artist as super nice and did it in under an hour (maybe 30 minutes). impeccable service and hands down for profession.
And maybe for a more recent update, i finally bought a hard disk! been wanting to buy oe ever since my old lappy crashed and all my beloved pictures were gone. those were the pictures that i have never ever posted on facebook, or friendster at that time and they meant so much to me =( then the songs also disappeared, but it took me about 2 weeks to redownload everything back. Now that i've got almost 4k plus photos, i really ougt to back them up somewhere cause if they were to get accidentally deleted, i'mma cry for real.
next stop,
New itouch and phone.
xoxo
Wednesday, May 16, 2012.
> 1:49:00 AM.
Dear blogger, it almost seems like google is feeling left in the lurch so it;s buying virtually anything adn everything it can. First it bought over picnik, and now blogger. Le sighs. I'm blogshopping massively to fill up the void and the blues. Thankfully my credit cards and money know when to hide themselves at it's most efficient. I cant checkout anything cause my pathetic pay isnt in, and when it does get in i am obliged to pay off my bills first. Well, seeling how much i MIGHT incur shopping does make me satisfied, as long as i dont hit the checkout button. Time to go source for cheap maryjane t bar shoes. Now that be some cheap pretty shoes i can use. Excuses
Saturday, April 07, 2012.
> 1:59:00 AM.
Dear blogger, I've been having this constant dream of me inhaling and smoking a cigarette in vivid details!
Like in this dream, i can even feel the butt inbetween my hands and the smell of the smoke. And the way i inhale, it makes it seem like i have been smoking for YEARS!
Just to set the record straight, i have not smoked intentionally before, mybe alot of second hand since i dont mind the smell of smoke, cept when it is blown directly to my face.
Like i find it weird sometimes, that i cant stand the smell, and other times im okay with it!
And lately, i've been suffering from really bad insomnia. *time checks* LOL,
Maybe this insomnia is a result from something i have no control of, or maybe something is troubling me. I really dont know!
Something is really up with my body cause i find myself super weak and tired despite having like a more than average sleep time and sometimes my lips turn pale like almost white!
the migranes/headaches i can understand, cause i have them all the time; but really! recently my body has been going through so much changes it actually spurred me on to see a doctor.
YES, CELIA IS GOING TO SEE A DOCTOR, WHEN SHE HAS THE MONEY.
i cannot emphasize more on the WHEN SHE HAS THE MONEY part.
=)
peace and xoxo
Wednesday, February 29, 2012.
> 10:19:00 PM.
You know what I realised? The only reason why I never said "NO" or "This is enough" to my secondary school friends, is because I desperately wanted to be part of the race, the group, the circle. I mean, I wasn't far apart in terms of our race. I was a little.. Different. And that was the pathetic reason why I never stood up for myself when I heard childish accusations being cast upon me. Insults in a different language cause no one bothered to even ask if I understood what they said. Well, of course I did. Every single utter. And of course I wasn't stupid when you guys whispered infront of me, or ask me to take care of the bags while ya'll stood 5 ft from me blabbering about what I said, did or didn't do. Insecure fucks, ya'll would blame me even for things I didn't do. And all I did was stay true to myself. Yet ya'll get angry when I decide to finally move on and get better friends that didn't have an only motive - to put me down. Cause what? If I'm lower than hell you magically feel superior? Then people ask, what went wrong along the way. Well, apologies that is. That was all I wanted. But no, cause brids of a feather flock together. If you didn't wanna admit the lies you insinuated and thrust to my well being. And after thinking leaving the clique was what they wanted, I find out I'm being casted with the "she ditch us" stamp across my face. Well I don't get what is expected of me.
Wow I finally got that all out after 3 years. I don't feel any better. But that's a chip of my mind.
Sunday, February 26, 2012.
> 3:22:00 PM.
OLA~
I have decided.
Decided that i will start school in 2013 and take study loans even if it takes me a long time to pay them back.
I know i was hesitant as to whether i still/really wanna do psychology
Well honest truth be told, i still am not sure, but i am not going to waste my time contemplating what i wanna do.
Instead, i'mma just study the one thing that fueled me for these past few years and them maybe the answer to all this might surface from there.
Anyways, these pass few weeks have been intense!
From : working a little too much shifts till im dead tired,
To: forgetting to submit shifts so im basking my weekdays away.
HEHE.
Well, so much for getting another job i claimed to have been finding for; non of them fuggermothers replied me.
Like nothing, nada, zilch.
Not even a " oh we're sorry but that position has already been taken up" and all.
Oh wells, maybe that wasnt the job for me then.
and so.. the wait continues.
Monday, February 20, 2012.
> 9:39:00 PM.
i never knew it was this hard to find a job.
Not that i'm unemployed or something, P.Osh is still my workplace.
I just.. need change?
cant believe im saying that.
I need another job because i cant stand working at posh sometimes.
All the taken for granted and silent dramas and wars.
Besides, it's not like the pay is enough for me to survive without working extra shifts and facing hope.
I just thought, maybe if i got another job i can alternate days and still earn just as much, or even better, more!
But alas, everything has been a bitch.
I just need a new job but im so picky.
I hope and i pray i find something soon.
=(
Friday, February 03, 2012.
> 3:24:00 PM.
dear blogger,
Suddenly i am wondering why i took psychology as a future career.
I mean, i'm looking at MINDS website now, and as much as i wanna send in my resume, i'm faced with the prospect of being a teacher to autistic kids.
I mean i have no problem cause i think i am able to play and interact with them.
But raising (my already loud voice that seems to get softer when im nervous) my voice to teach a class, with the possibility of another teacher observing me is terrifying.
Even the thought of it makes me shudder now. I know i know.. i should put these fears aside.
But then again, my intended course of career dosent see me talking to a class.
But hey, these are the things you need to do in order to rise right?
*shakey hands* okay here goes.
:(
wont hurt if i send a resume.
Problem is, they have a contract, and if i cant even commit in a relationship, what more a job?
Maybe this will make me grow.
Tuesday, January 31, 2012.
> 1:11:00 PM.
I need a new place to stay, i cant stay at home anymore.
No, i cant stay at home when my mom's overly childish fucking mindset sister is here.
